Once Again...

Monday, November 30, 2009

i've heard it from your own mouth...
u don need me...
then what am i here for?
i've had this horrible feeling for a very long long time...
its the feeling that i really HATE THE MOST.....

i don like being treated this wae...
what am i to do more?
calm myself down?
held back all those tears?
been there done that...
but the result that i got was still the same...

yupp the same...
i was told to give you another chance to make things better..
i did...
i gave you another chance....
i think u have forgotten the promise that you've made...
on that one faithful night...
you told me everything is going to be how it used to be...
but, its not....
since the time u disappeared...
u've changed...
u were never the same again...
no time for me...
its true right?
common don't deny it...
telling me everything u did was for me..
but it wasent...
it wasent long before i got to see what you were up to..

you wanna be happy...
happy with the things you've never gotten...
sometimes you have to stop n see what's in front of you...
does those stuffs really make you happy?
what about those ppl that need you...
dont they need happiness too?
what if they need you to make them happy?
you are going too far...
too fast....
you forgot about those who NEED you...
yes YOU...
you have to stop and smell the roses once in a while...

now its almost time for you to leave me...
this is the point of time that we were supposed to be closer than ever...
its the time where by i need u the most...
i dont want the love to ever fade away...
cause once it does...
will it ever come back?

the dae that u have to leave me on my own...
was the dae where our love is super strong that no one could break it...
but now, at this stage...
i don even know if it were to ever happen...
now, u have everything that u'll ever need...
internet, computer excess, friends, families n all other needs...
everything is there with you...
you dont need me any more..
u dont need my help...

im at the edge of loosing myself...
will u be there to save me?
or will u be out there doing some other stuffs when i'm about to fall...
its like i going through my life on my own without you...

can u make everything better?
will you make everything better?
will you make me feel better?
or will you just let me fade away on my own..
one question, are we wasting our time?
or is this worth it?

no hugs n kisses...
LiLLy

♥ 1:39 PM

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

ok its bad...
really bad...
i've been locked OUT...
out of my room ! ! !
wanna noe how it happen?

well it started with the dae being so windy...
in fact, too windy...
the door slammed shut n 'click'...
its locked...

well how bad could it be right?
WRONG...
i aint got no key...
no idea where it is..
key...
lost...
me...
locked out...

tried to pick lock..
but, im not a pro...
so no can do...
it's still locked...
my bro helped too...
but like i said..
can't make it open...

the only thing for me to do now is to wait for daddy to come home...
daddy oh daddy please come home...
i know u can make that door open...
i know u can...
please daddy come home soon...
i love u daddy..
i really do...
u're the best daddy in the whole wide world...
=]

XOXO
LiLLy

♥ 6:43 PM

I Don't Care

Friday, November 20, 2009

As for now..

I Don't Care

♥ 1:53 PM

Thursday, November 12, 2009

I love the feel of freedom...
it feels so good...
the thought of nothing to care about seems so real...
everybody knows things dosent end there just like that...
life has to go on...
facing fears...
hoping for dreams to come true...
waiting for miracle to happened...
life is never easy...
happiness turns to misery...
cry of laughter turns to screams of anger...

just when i thought its time to retrieve my precious...
i was wrong its only a trick to set my mind to it..
there's more in life to come...
just thinking about it make me feel so weak...
how am i to do this??
can i even get those things right in life?
am i able to move on?
are the things that im preparing for ever gonna happen??
things will never be the same...

dreams do come true...
i know i does...
cause i believe in it...
i'll make it happen what ever it takes...

XOXO
LiLLy

♥ 9:35 AM