Its new year's eve....
wow...
one year has passed...
lots of mistakes done..
lots of lesson learned...
lots of things accomplished...
lots of new ppl met..
lots of new memories...
lots of tears of fear, joy, sadness...
broken heart...
gonna miss 2008...

And HELLO 2009 ! ! !
hahaha
hmm i wonder how am i to celebrate 2009...
i think i'll jux go wif th flow..
haha...

cant wait to start my new hobby..
and have fun in th sun..
haha..
i hope wen im under th sun, it will not b a hot dae..
hahaha..
i miss all my friends..
i wish i could celebrate 2009 wif every single one of u..
i do i do..

i wanna get th heck out of th house...
but where am i to go??
n hu m i gonna ask to tag along?
hmm...
lalalalala...
okae im bored...
AAAARRRRGGGHHH ! ! ! !
im goin ccccrrrraaaaazziiiieeee...
hahas

ok ok...
serious time...
Ehem Ehem...
Wad does 2008 means to me....
2008 has been a real hard year fer mie...
in terms of sch, fam, relationship, friendship..
it was not like was i have expected...
too much to go through...
but still, its filled wif good memories..
[and bad ones too]
but i appreciate having everyone around mie..
i have learnt how to appreciate ppl more..
and how to look at things in a positive wae..
even tho how sucky life might be, but we still have to continue living this life don't we??
life is precious...
u can only live once...
so make use of it..
properly....
so, yah...
still so many things to sae...
but kinda lazy rite now..
hahaha...

oh gosh im hungry..
=S

XOXO,
LiLLy
gonna miss u ...

PS: If u give a kitty a piece of candy, it wont like it... Unless her name is LiLLy... =P


whoa tdae was kind of a long dae..
hah...
woke up early in the morning...
too early actually..
felt super sleepy in th bus...
XP
so, went to the doc...
poor lil bro...
but i think hes fine now..
still sleeping since jux nw...
hehe...

ouh drink Milo fer breakfast...
got a super terrible terrible terrible tummie ache...
super painful...
Note to self: never ever ever NEVER EVER drink Milo fer breakfast EVER AGAIN ! !
could still feel the pain th the tummie till now..
=S

dn mie n my ferst bro went all the wae searching...
fer the thing i wanna buy...
jux cant wait any more...
too excited..
if i din get to buy it, i'll be super heart broken...
dat will b super duper cyber sad...
so yeap...
bought it...
needa go n buy stuffs to upgrade it...
but dn...
th stuffs are not cheap...
so nedda go n save up....
oh it will take a long long time fer dat...
but i will save up no matter wad..
hmm i guess dat is my new resolution fer nxt yr...
heheh..
i hope i can kip it up =D

fuuhh so tiered...
i think i'll be slping early tnite..
dats what was in my mind...
but if i don feel like it...
maybe i wont slp early...
HEHEHE...

PS: Mean people are NOT nice =)

Labels: Cravings

I, LiLLy, have made a big sacrifice...
i dyed my hair back to black...
well, cause i wanna buy smth...
hehehe...
wanna noe wad it is?
well, jux wait till i buy it...
=]]

ouh n OMG...
for the first time, i talked to my mom bout how i felt...
What i think....
n for the first time, i felt good...
real GOOOODDDD....
as in happy...
cause she know what i think...
instead of jux wad she think...
anddd....
i got wat i want...
=]
ouh ouh hugged daddy cause hes the best....
he gave me the cash to go n buy the thing i wanted....
i never thought he would ever ever ever let me....
well, cause im a gurl...
im sooo darn excited....
GAAAAHHHHH ! ! ! !
=D

ouh...
my Little bro got a chickenpox...
poor lil bro....
had to put dat paint-smelling-white-cream all over his body...
so tmr had to cancel all my plans...
how sad...
bt its okae....
i'll follow mom n my bro to send lil bro to the doc =]
Hope he will get well soon =D

PS: Its good to b good =]
Lurv yah Mom n Dad...
muakxx muakkxx =]



I probably shouldn't say this
But at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we shared

It was awesome but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care
And now we're standing in the rain
But nothing's ever gonna change
Until you hear, my dear

The 7 things I hate about you!
The 7 things I hate about you, oh you
You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy

Your friends, they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

It's awkward and silent
As I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now
Your sincere apology

When you mean it, I'll believe it
If you text it, I'll delete it
Let's be clear
Oh, I'm not coming back
You're taking 7 steps here

The 7 things I hate about you!
You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy

Your friends, they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

And compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention the 7 that I like

The 7 things I like about you!
Your hair, your eyes, your old Levi's
When we kiss I'm hypnotized
You make me laugh, you make me cry
But I guess that's both I'll have to buy

Your hands in mine
When we're intertwined, everything's alright
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I like most that you do
You make me love you, you do


PS: Once u noe the truth, nuttin but the truth, it hurts u deep deep deeep inside...



Phewh....
todae was a LONG dae...
but it ended in a good n happie ending....
early in the mornin had to get up n follo my mom buy bro's book..
then sent them to a football class thingie....
n the bus was super late like hell....
n got home a lil late to get ready...
to mit Patrick a.k.a Joe...
hahahaha...

so yah i was late n im reallyy sorrie fer dat...
so went to Vivo....
ouh n i would like to take tis opportunity to thank Joe...
fer the lovely early dinner at Ramen 10...
it was super nice....
ouh love that choc drink...
wish to have more...
hehe....
well, its not like some ppl hu haf to promise to treat Swensens or wad...
but din keep th promise...
dat is y i hate promises...
cause usually they are jux so empty....
so ya...
th dinner was super nice...
ouh n it took mie so long jux to finish the dish....
even tho it was jux a one single plate of ramen...
ouh n i was like trying my best not to mess up...
so i guess dat was one of the reasons y it took mie much more time to finish the food...

dn went to buy some silly stuffs....
hehehe love it so much... XD
=]
well, then watched YES Man...
FUNNIE LIKE HELL ! ! !
hehe...
cant stp lafn....
but the best thing wag was dat...
tis whole dae was a success..
=D
congrats Partick Joe...
everythig was on him...
oh gosh...
dat was the greatest thing dat a person could have ever done...
i really appreciate every moment of it...
appreciate it alot.... =D

ouh...
n im starting to have the vissions....
its like im seeing lotdsa ppl hu look like him...
u noe hu...
i think im missin him too much...
i wish to visit....
but cant...
i heard he was okae...
so i im guessing hes okae there...
every thing is taken care of....

ouh gave my mom a hug...
n she was like...
errr wad is dis all about??
so i was like kip on smilin...
tee hee...

so ya had a great dae tedae...
all thanx to...
Patrick Joe...
Thank You...
Good night n have a nice day...
=D
hehehe XP

PS:Joe my mannn.... ure th best dude... the best friend dat a person could have ever had... =D


Went jammin yesterdae...
well, i jux watch my friends play tho..
they were good...
esp the drumming..
fast n it blends in with the song...
pretty cool..

i felt a lil uneasy tho..
cause i was like the onli gurl...
darn it...
Lynn was supposesed to tag along but she cant...
But its okae...
no worries...
maybe some other time.. =]

After jammin the bunch of us went fer a walk...
n we went to some guitar shops..
i was out if words...
the guitar was super nice...
they even had a pink one...
OMG...
i wish i had that one...

i was super tiered after dat...
i kinda fell asleep for a moment in the train...
while standing...
=O
hua hua hua...
i was lucky dat my friend was there...
so he could kin an eye on me...
hahaha...
slept fer like 5 mins or so...
dn i was back to normal....
hehe...

whoa we talked loadsa crapp...
n make silly lame jokes all dae sia...
laughed so much...
too much actualli..

ouh good times had to come to an end...
mom kinda gave me a real scolding as soon as i got home...
i felt bad...
cause not telling her i was going oud..
i think i should write her an apology letter...
may be then she will be okae with me again...
i think i should start now...
hmm...
gtg....

ouh ouh...
MARI KIRISUMASUUUU ! ! ! !
HAAAIIIIKKKK =D

Sayonara... :)




OH gosh im now addicted to Runescape... XD
its fun to play tho...
What am i supposed to be doing rite now??
practice my guit...
but im playin game instead...
oh darn it..

well, i was super angry with my fam ytd...
my 2 bros, mie mom n me..
we r supposed to go to vivo to u noe...
shop...
ferst went to jp n eat...
dn wen we were about to go there...
my bro wag bugging my mom sayin dat dey dowana go..
i was like...
WTF???
my mom was like...
she was trapped in the middle and bla3...
dn she called my dad to u noe... (i oso donno y la)
so, in the end we din go...
i was super pissed off like a F*ing shit...
wtf sia...
so i have decided to take a walk home instead of following my mom taking the bus back home...
i could not healed my tears any longer..
i was lucky dat my friend was there to gimmie a call...
and listen to mie...
n tok to mie...
and calm mie dwn...
if i were to follow my feelings, i don think i wanna go home...
but thnx to him, i felt so so so sooooo much better...
dat i could finally smile again...=]
thnx dude =D
appreciate it ALOT LIKE HELL =))

Hmm... ive been staying at home fer the past few daes...
kinda lazy to go oudd..
ouh n home is super boring too...
i was so bored dat i draw on my room wall with markers n paint...
hahahaha..
my masterpiece is still no done yet tho...
heh...

Haix i miss him...
y does he haf to leave mie all alone....
all by my self...
i hope i can visit him soon...
case i have LOADSA qns to ask..
and LOADSA stories to tell.... =]
ouh n some shits to show it to him tee hee...

if i could make one wish...
i would wish dat i get wad i wish for...
hehehehehehe....
becareful wad u wish for..
cause u might jux get it...
so i will wish to save dat wish till thees this one time when i desprately need it =]

SAYONARA ! ! ! !
PS: Azumanga Daioh super KAWAII ! ! !
i think im back in love with the anime...
WHEEEEE.... XP




Wana noe wanna noe wanna noe wadddd ! ! ! ! ????
Daddy bought home a huge crab....
OMG...
jux look at it...
jux take a look at it...
compare it wif the banana...
(it was Dad's idea to put the babana there... haha)
my two bros n my mom ran into the room...
hahaha
ouh n dats mie wif the crab..
i was laughing actually...
tried to smile tho...
heh..

ouh n u now wad my bro said?
he said dat he felt like throwing an apple at the carb...
Hahahahahah...
HOW HILARIOUS ! ! ! XD
ouh n now he saes he wanna 'fight' wif the crab...
yea ritte....
he was the one hu ran into the room first...
wanna fight wif the crab..
crap sia him... XD

ouh n we ALL know hus gonna win riitteee....
ouh n my lil bro is soo obsessed wif 619....
he kept on singing the song.... hahahaha
awww how kyutteee...

ouh n yeap that bro is still finding a wae to 'fight' the crab...
oh stop it la...
Sheesh...
i give upp..




Tis is SUPER boring...
my bros friends (2 of em) have been sleepin at my hse fer like 4 nights now...
its like a sleep over...
their parents are okae wif it n so are my parents...
they r like onli sec 1 n pri 5....
i din get to stay at my frens hse at dat time..
or at least bring my fren over...
how unfair....
but its like every night they will not sleep and play games...
ouh did i tell u his friend likes to shout and his voice is UBER LOUD??
yes its loud alright..
imagine having to saty up becoz of dat?
and i have to tolerate wif dat fer like a few daes now...
i cant stand it no more...
its jux too loud...
n kinda irritating...
urrgghh...
dats y i like to go oud...
dduuuhhh....
but wad can i do...
now its like i cant even have my own privacy...
they made everything seems like their own...

now my mom kinda found oud aboud my hair...
darn it...
well its kinda too late to 'try' and fix me..
i have had enough of life n fam...
all those empty promises...
and all those times i had to b left alone...
they jux don meke sense...
they din look at the BIG picture....
dudee... im still one of their child...
i need wat every other child need...
at least some attention from parents...
where has the good times went...
now dat i'm old enough, i'll do wad i wan...
ouh n don blame my friends fer dis...
hay aint gt anything to do wif it...
I LOVE ALL OF MY FRIENDS....
yes i love dem more then anything else....
i could never ask for more...

X♥X♥
Lots of kisses,
LiLLyLioness™








Im not sure wads goin on here...
but i will jux continue wif my life...
shud i wait or should i jux move on?
haix...
in this kind of situation, i'll jux wait...
maybe one dae i could give him a visit den we'll talk....
Maybe she still misses him?
Maybe i still misses him?
I jux dont get it...
Its complicated without him here to tell mie wads goin on...
Every time i think about him, i feel like cryin...
but at the same time i don't feel like cryin...

~~~

comp sot2 these daes...
so gotta reboot the comp...
its super boring wen theres no comp...
its like ure half dead....
dead due to boredom...
so yea, played dressup a lil...
its fun wen ure alone at home n gt nth to do...
hahah

~~~

Went to the new shopping mall jux now...
bought some shits n all...
its fun to explore..
n shop at the same time...
whee...
so yea...
all in all, at least i could still cheer myself up...
but still....
haixx....


So did u lie to me?
Was i just another toy for you?
Was it all just an act?
How about her?
How about me?
How about all those things u said to me before u left?

I cant stop thinking about u....
i dream about u every night...
Can't eat...
Can't do anything right...
Dont tell mie...
Life is waisted again...
i hate it when that happen...

So now, all i need is a true relationship...
Something that can last long...
Maybe forever...
Not a short n puny ones...
Got sick of those....
I need the truth....
I need nothing but the truth...
And i need it NOW...


Its been a week since th last time i met him...
really missin him now...
i wonder what hes doing each day...
ouhh i created a song fer him but it still needs some edits and all...
Dont worry, i'll wait fer you...
even if it took you six months...
i'll try to visit...
but the problem now is that i dono how to visit yuh..
still waiting fer yur cuzz to tell me how to get there...

Its weired, i dream about him almost every nitte...
n every time i dream about him, he would have to go off leaving me alone in the end...
i hope it wont happen...
literally...
Seriouly missin him like hell...
i cant even find the perfect word to describe what i'm feeling rite now...

speakin of dream...
i had a kewl drem...
my lil brother was beaten up by tis gurl....
she hit my lil bro with a chair on the face...
n his nose was bleeding...
i was super angry dat i choke the gurl n ask my first bro to punch her n all..
but he was too weak..
so, i punch her myself...
i was not satisfied tho...
then i went to the fone n called my dad...
the weired thing so dat my dad is a japanese...
kewl huh??
it does not have that "ring ring" tone...
but a lady kinda speak to me....
In japanese....
i dono how but i understood...
shes saes to leave a message after the tone...
and all of a sudden i was turned into a fish... (sheesh)
and POOF im back to the real world...
hmm if i were to see dat gurl again, i'm gonna beat the shit out of her...
seriously...

hmm well, i think im gonna change blog soon...
kinda dont like this blog rite now...
wat do u guys think?

So fer those hu do not know wad i was blabbering about earlier...
u can ask mie personally...
cause i do not like to tell the whole world wad i was going thorough...
u noe wad i mean...

see yea...
X♥X♥
LiLLyXMurdered™

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